prayin'

There is so much I could say about prayer, I don’t even know where to begin. The one thing I know is that God is a God who answers prayers! I know because of experience, I know because He promises in His word …and … well it’s one of those things that I just know! I believe with all of my heart that one day I will look back at this blog and see how God answered the prayer that we are praying!

Yesterday I had to talk to my human resource manager at work. I was pretty nervous going in and I don’t know why. When I started to tell her why I needed time off, I started bawling – and I couldn’t stop. It was so embarrassing. She was really sweet and supportive, almost as if she really understood what I was going through. The crappy part was that I found out that I could have gotten a sick leave with pay instead of working part time (which is what I have been doing so I can make it to my appointments) I feel like everything backfired on me. I just keep telling myself that it is only money – you can’t take it with you when you die. : )

My follicles are growing big. We have hope for this month – the scary part is that I was told today that they might have to take some eggs out…if they get too big.

Today has been a really tough day actually - I just keep crying. It could be my hormones, or the scariness of the unknown, or the fact that I try so hard to stay positive and not let things “get” to me – and I just need to “let it all out”
What ever the reason – I have decided to cancel the things I had planned for today (even though I really didn’t want to) and go back to bed. I hope that a good nap will help.