what…me? an emotional eater?

I stepped on the scale today and I am still up 8 pounds from the beginning of all the hormonal treatments. I was hoping since this was a “drug free” month I would exercise a bit more, eat a bit less and fit into my jeans a lot more comfortably! That didn’t happen.

Today I had my nurse appointment. I left feeling so overwhelmed. On my way home I stopped at the grocery store for some peppers to add to my dinner…I left with this:


(I have a weird popcorn fetish – notice: not one, but two boxes of microwave popcorn!)

EEEK! Maybe it is not necessarily all the hormones that caused my weight gain. Perhaps I tend to comfort myself with food a little too often. (I say as I bite into a delicious piece of pumpernickel bread covered in spinach dip – mmmm) Why is it that food (of all things) makes me feel better?

My husband K and I had our counselor appointment last week. To be honest – I felt like it was a complete waste of 150 dollars. The woman was very nice and we had a pleasant conversation but it lasted less than 30 mins!! The purpose was to for her to determine whether K and I are emotionally ready and strong enough to face IVF. We “passed the test” so that is good! ;)

Today I met with the nurse. She gave us a ton of papers to read and sign...



...consent forms for every procedure – like what we want to do with the embryos that aren’t strong enough – discard them or donate them for research; or what we want to do with the embryo’s if one or both of us die etc. Crazy! I haven’t thought about those details before.

She also gave me the list of medication I will be taking. Starting with 3 injections a day – scary! And lastly, recommended that I go for acupuncture.

And if that wasn’t overwhelming enough – she told me that on Wednesday I have to go for one more procedure. I forget what it is called – but basically the doctor will scrape the inside of my uterus – the injury helps the embryo “stick” – those are my words – she used all kinds of medical terminology, that I can’t even remember - my brain is really full of information right now!

So that was my day. Wednesday is K’s analysis, meeting with the embryologist and my uterus scraping! And tomorrow I will exercise! I will, I will!