I feel like a whirlwind of emotions and my thoughts are all over the place…so much that I don’t really know how to fit them all together, so point form it is…here are a few:
• I am totally bummed that some of my comments got lost when Blogger went down. One of my favorite things about this blog getting comments (even though I am really bad at commenting on blogs – sorry – it is something I need to do more of) I am sad they are gone.
• I don’t understand God sometimes. But I do know that God sees the BIG picture. I know that God loves me, and I know that He has a plan for my life – even though right now I don’t understand it.
• I haven’t started any hormones yet this month – and I find my self crying everyday! I use to blame the drugs – but lets be honest – infertility is just plain stressful!
• It was my sister-in-law’s baby shower this week. She is due around the same time I was due. I didn’t go to the shower. I just said I was unable to attend and didn’t give a reason. If you’ve faced infertility you know why I couldn’t be there. Part of me feels bad about it, and part of me doesn't.
• I am still dreading my “unfulfilled” due date. Any tips on how to get through that?
• My ultrasound went really well this week. The tech said that I have “textbook anatomy” She went on and on about it saying that she wished she had a student there. She even came out to tell my husband how “beautiful” my uterus and ovaries were. Tee hee. I’ve had too many ultrasounds to count – and no one has said that to me before…strange.
• I really love this song. If I could have a “theme song” for this cycle – this song would be it. The first time I sat and listened to it I cried…but that is not a surprise ;)
• Yesterday I had a conversation and I said more than I should have. I wish I could “backspace” words that come out of my mouth sometimes.
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